All You Want is a Hug

     You get up in your bed and look at the clock it only says 11:00 am you could've slept another hour, but instead you decide that it isn't worth it so you get up. A growling in your stomach signals that you haven't eaten in almost 14 hours and it is time to eat again. You go into the small college dorm kitchen that's not really a kitchen and decide that you are going to eat soup. As your soup is warming up you think about the night before and all the things you had to do, like: taking a spanish test, moving rooms, hanging out with friends, homework, and getting your computer to work again. You ask yourself how did I not cry last night? How did I hold it together? And then you answer your own questions. It's because you didn't let yourself cry it's because you held it as tight as you could inside. You wouldn't be seen breaking down you don't need anybody they need you. That's what you say to yourself. You wont break but you can feel yourself breaking inside it's just too much.
     Then you think I hung out with Kyle last night and you realize no matter how much you tell yourself not to like you him you want to like him and all you want is a hug. You just want to feel yourself being cared about. You want somebody that you can cry into even though you know you wont, you want it anyway. But then you realize with Kyle you cant ever like him. He is just a friend and he wont ever care about you the same way he might've before. That's when it becomes lonely.
     You feel so alone and no matter how much you want a hug you cant ask for one because it will take them away from what they are doing. You cant ask for one because for you people always come to you but you can never go to them. So you have to endure through it. You have to be strong until you can get over this bump of depression in your week or life. Then you know you'll be fine, but just thinking about the next time this will happen you don't know you can handle it.
     You are the type of person who hates to be sad who hates to be mad so you do everything in your power to be happy. But, you don't realize that a person can't be perfectly happy forever and when you become sad or depressed you really become sad or depressed. And then all you want is a hug.