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You Can Do Anything

     You look into the mirror your green eyes stare back at you. It's time to start getting ready for the day. First comes the foundation to cover up all the freckles on your face. Then comes the Mascara to make your eyelashes noticeable. Next the eye shadow to make your eyes pop. You try to make your hair cute today but it's just not doing what you want it to so you decide to put it into a ponytail. You have to get dressed now. You look into your closet maybe today's the day for skinny jeans? No you decide. Maybe today's the day for shorts? No. You decide on sweatpants they're comfortable and you need comfort today. You walk outside ready for the world. You feel beautiful and like you can conquer anything.      You go to your first class boy's flirting with girls that have curly, long, blond hair. Why didn't you curl your hair today? You see your friends wearing skinny jeans and a nice shirt with their hair down. Why didn't you where skinny jeans wit...
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The Unknown

     I have recently moved to Arizona I hate it here. But what are you going to do? I can't do anything and then I realized that I am here for a reason. God put me here and I have to figure out why. God always has a plan whether it's my struggles or happiness or putting people in my life who need me and who I need. There are so many people that I don't think I would be able to make it without the people in my life right now. My friends. My family. Recently I got a letter from Ali who is in Alabama on her mission and she mentioned something that I think is amazing and incredible. She said, "We joke about how friends are God's way of apologizing for our families but I think it's more like, friends are our way of choosing our families."      I think that is so true because my friends are not Ali's. I chose my friends and they have become my family but Ali has chosen friends that I don't like or can't get along with them worth crap. It's craz...
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It's Nice To Be Important But It's MORE Important To Be Nice

     You look into the mirror what do you see? Well I see a strong, beautiful women. She is beautiful beyond belief and sadly she doesn't see it. You know why she doesn't see it? It's because every single day she compares herself to someone. She compares her hair, clothes, weight, strength, and so much more. It's horrible, but it's what she is pounded with every single day by movies, models, and expectations. She has to be skinny. She has to have a flat stomach. She has to have perfect thighs and perfect muscles. It's not fair. Not everyone can have that. Not everyone can be that 'perfect' weight. You know why? It's because we are all different. What is so bad about being different? Nothing. What is so bad about being overweight? Nothing until you can't even move or do anything and it's effecting your health. What is so bad about having jiggly arms? I don't think there's anything wrong with it but you hear all around you "Wow yo...
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I don't like to be called that

     The lips of a family member speak the words, "Idiot! You are so stupid! I hate you!" You hear that and it makes your heart hurt. You hear that and you don't know if they really meant it or not. You continue to go about your day and you realize that they really didn't mean it and in the end you are family and they will always love you no matter what because they can't hate you for long. You know that with a family member, but do you know that with a friend?      Do you know for certain that if they call you a name that they really mean it or not? You step on a friends foot as a joke forgetting that her toe is hurt the words escaping her lips aren't the nicest one's you've ever heard. She yelled at you, "YOU IDIOT MY TOE IS HURT!" And as if that wasn't enough she tags on at the end, "YOU BITCH!" You are shocked and hurt you don't know how to respond and you sure don't know what to say, but you act like it doesn'...
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The Happy Things

     Why is it that the strongest feeling you feel is sadness, anger, or love? Why is it that happiness is the most wanted feeling you are capable of but yet you never write down the things that made you happy? Why I thought of this is for one reason only it's a problem I have of getting left. I've been left on so many occasions, I've been forgotten about, and tricked but what hurts the most is the fact that the other party doesn't understand how much it hurts. They only understand once it happens to them but even then they only think of themselves. So instead of writing my feelings down about all that sadness I am going to write down the things that made me happy today... The things that are worth writing down.... The things that are worth remembering :)      Today was a Monday. You got to sleep in today till 11:30 and then you couldn't smell yourself and your hair wasn'...
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That look

     You know that look that you get from someone you love? That look of disappointment? That horrible look just crossed in the eyes of my brother. I never want to see it again. That look from someone you love, is worse than anything anyone could've said...... The eyes that looked at me..... His whole demeanor changed..... I never ever want to see that again..... Never ever again...... Especially from my brother.
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That is What I Love

     I really have no idea what I am going to write to you about there are way too many things. I really don't know what to do and don't know my own feelings right now, they are way too jumbled up for me to make any sense of anything so I am going to talk about something I love. Because I can't seem to pinpoint my feelings and talking about something you love always makes one very happy inside so I am going to just write about what I love and that's it..... We will see what comes to mind :)      The sun is shining but not for very long as you see it slowly start to move across the sky. You probably have about 25 to 30 minutes before it gets dark. You start to walk and you know what happens? You start to think. About everything that has been troubling you and that's when you find answers to all your questions. Then you get to the clear feilds and you look toward the mountainside and there is the most beautiful sunset you have ever seen. You know G...
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