Everyday Ramblings

Okay so my friend didn't die he just... told me we couldn't be friends andymore. Now it hurt. It hurt immensley and not because of that. It hurt because he thought I was lying to his face. He thought I wasn't telling the truth when in fact I have never lied to him before... Ever. And that's what hurt me that's what hurt me a lot.

I lost a friend today. I lost a brother today. I lost the one person I can be myself around today. I lost my happiness today. I lost a really good friend.

So I just had the BEST most wonderful weekend EVER!! It started on friday at two in the morning.... Yes two in the morning, why you may ask... Well I will tell you. Friday So Amber was turning 18 and Heidi, Cassidy, Katie, Meghan, Lynsey, and me decided to make her a cake. Then, out of the blue Cassidy decided to get everyone and surprise Amber (while she was sleeping) at 2 in the morning..... She didn't suspect a thing! Here was her reaction: Us: Walked into room holding balloons. Amber: Sleeping soundly all curled up and looking very peaceful. Us: Snickers and trying not to laugh to hard. Amber: Still fast asleep. Us: What do we do now? Amber: Still fast asleep. Us: Heidi turn on the light! Amber: Still fast asleep. Heidi: Turns on light. Amber: BOLTS up in her bed looking very confused. Us: Throwing balloons and screaming HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Amber: "AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!" Takes breath, "AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!" Us: Is she okay? Amber: Takes out headpho...

          Okay so I'm sorry for writing so much in a few days but I've had some MAJOR realizations about life in general and I feel I at least have to share them with people in some way, and this happened to be the best way. I had no idea college would be so difficult and emotional. Don't get me wrong it is such an amazing experience and the schooling is so much easier than highschool but that's just the schooling. The people are harder. I mean I love college I love how nice everybody is and how friendly, but it takes it to a whole new level when you have to live with people you don't like or don't like you. That's what makes college so hard. Yesterday I talked about judging a person and how I shouldn't care what they think because it's only one person that doesn't like you. Today I just realized that we listen to the wrong things and we talk about all the wrong things too. I don't like it when people gossip at all it makes me sad because...

              I was having one of the worst possible days I could ever have yesterday. I was beating myself up about whether I should change and if there was something wrong with me. I think everybody know's those days, those awful days where you just slowly tear yourself down until theres nothing left but a lonely shell. I was having one of those days and it was a slow progression and then finally I just couldn't handle it anymore, I locked myself in my room and sat on my bed on my computer working on a story. But what made it worse was the fact that my roommates were out in the kitchen laughing, making smoothies, and playing games but not ONE invited me to come hang out with them so I was left in the dark. It was awful because I felt SO alone and I texted and called maybe 3 or 4 people and not one answered. My lonliness was progressing and getting worse and worse, and I started wondering if there was something wrong with...

The Liebster Blog Award is given to upcoming bloggers who have less than 200 followers. The Meaning; Liebster is German and means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing and welcome. THE RULES. 1. one must write eleven facts about themselves. 2. answer the questions the 'tagger' has set for you. 3. provide eleven new questions for the people you tag. 4. choose up to elven people and link them in your post. 5. inform the 'tagged' of this prestigious award FACTS ABOUT ME: 1. I LOVE the color purple! 2. I can't stand peas, when people sqeeze too much toothpaste out on there toothbrush, and when I'm ignored.  3. I absolutely hate it when people are with their boyfriends 24/7 and all they talk about is them. 4. I love the #50 5. I hate the wind. 6. I LOVE to eat a good homemade salad 7. I like to write for fun but don't believe I'm any good. 8. I took 4 years of spanish and ...

Alright so have any of you guys ever moved away from your home your friends and everything you know? Well my family is. We are moving to Arizona, and let me tell you it is going to be REALLY hot down there. Anyhoo some of you may be saying well it dosen't matter for me since I am going off to college, but you are sooo wrong. I won't see some  of my closest friends for a VERY long time and on top of that when I go 'home' I'm not going to be home I am going to be somewhere I don't know anybody and I don't know anything. I am not happy that we are moving at all whatsoever and my dad even tried to get rid of our cats... Now that was crossing the line. But even so there are some perks and it is worth moving because my dad is a lot happier now and he seems to get excited about things more often than he used to. Before my dad had his current teaching job he used to read to us almost every night and he used to tell us stories that he just made up off the top of his...

    Okay so most of you know that I have graduated from highschool and gotten my diploma (thank goodness). But, what most of you don't know is that I did something kinda funny and unlike me. Well, there's this guy (I believe I've talked about him in other posts) his name is Braden Flory and I have liked him for four years, and now since I've graduated I saw no reason not to tell him. This is how our conversation went.     Well, it was the senior party all night, and it was around 4:00 in the morning so I was running out of time, but I just couldn't seem to find the perfect time because he is always talking to someone... and I mean ALWAYS. Well, they had put on the movie Tangled for us to watch and it just so happened that this was the perfect time. He was walking to his destination when I stopped him. I said, "Hey Braden." "Oh hey Dolores," Was his reply, "How are you?" "Good how are you?" "Good." Then it got su...

            Okay so I don't know if any of you know my best friend. Her name is Ali. She loves the color orange and she hates flossing and her moms a dentist! We have been there for each other through thick and thin we have had fights, but we've always come out as better friends then before. I love my best friend she is one of the most beautiful people I know and if she changed I would be the saddest person ever. One of the things that we do (that is kinda weird) we don't talk for about 3 weeks sometimes shorter and sometimes longer. Then, one day randomly we will hang out and go for a walk and just talk about the most randomest stuff... And I mean REALLY random. Our conversations move from boys to good news to bad news to funny things to our friends, we talk about everything you can think of. I love her so much she is always there for me and s...

             You know that feeling you get when you you see people with their boyfriends and girlfriends and then you find out they are engaged? Half of you is like you guys are stupid and young but the other half is like it's not fair, and then you get to thinking (which can never be good) and start to wonder if your pretty or not. If your personality is all that great or you need to change it. I have had those thoughts recently for one of two reasons. Prom was last week and I wanted so badly to go (of course I didn't let anyone know that) especially when all my friends were going. The second reason was because all my junior friends got asked, and got to go to their junior prom. I of course didn't get to go to my junior prom or senior prom and I was really bummed.            But I had this great lesson in seminary the other day and it really made me question my beliefs on the subject of beauty. We talked about Esther (i...

So me, Ali, Che'lynne, Kayla, and Camden had the best end of the break day!!! First, it just started out with me Ali and Chey (Che'lynne). See Chey switched schools and HATES it there, so me and Ali decided to kidnap her on the last day of the break, and create havic all around Heber!! It all started on January 2, 2012 @ 1:00 pm. First, me and Ali met at Mcdonalds then walked to Wal mart where Chey would be meeting us, but not just meeting us we would have to find her in Wal mart! We walked all OVER the store, and I swear we spent close to an hour just trying to find her. So, eventually we gave up and called her down to the front of the store, she (of course) knew exactly who it was and decided to come anyways. Ali saw her first and she yelled, "CHEY!" and in response she said, "Cheaters!" but hugged us anyways. At first we had NO idea what to do, but we decided on switching things around in the store (that includes price tags) when we came up with the bril...